I am looking for a long term relationship with an understanding and loving man. I can be a great friend and lover. For the first time in my life I find myself needing someone to help take care of me for a change. Until now I have always taken care of myself and everyone around me, but my life has changed for the worse and I find myself needing help, love and care from a man that will love me enough to understand the forces and demands on me and what these pressures force me to do. My life has never been easy, and through all this I have always managed to survive, but at the price of having no life of my own, as well as putting my morals aside for the benefit of my family. Being that my kids are almost grown I find myself wanting to have a real "partner in crime", as they say. I desire to enjoy things I've never had the chance to while raising my three children. My husband and I are little more than friends at this point and I find my self lonely and scared. I have given every inch of myself because of what I have to do to keep my children and myself afloat. I have a need to live for me for the first time in a long time. I really need some fun in my life, but not at the cost of my family, or my heart. Please understand that if you wish to meet me and perhaps begin a relationship with me, it would have to start off being the type of relationship in which I would have to be compensated for my time. In the future, if we find that we are attracted to each other in a more conventional sense, then I would be very happy to give you my heart. You must understand, I'm in a bad place financially and emotionally and I'm doing anything I can to prevail. I will make any necessary sacrifices to survive in this world. There are other reasons for my actions and why I'm looking for a true partner, but that will be divulged in time. Everything I have written is the truth and I can promise you this. I will never lie or steal and I am an honest person. These traits are important to me because they're all I have left of my principles. I am very educated, love sex and sensuality, and have talents most women will never have. I'm all women inside and out and always go out of my way for my family, friends and their happiness. If you are an understanding loving man, and you are tired of being alone, please write me back. I promise you this is the most honest site you have ever seen, there are no hidden agendas.